I miss PE

I was running along the canal that day, when i saw a bunch of primary school kids y hurrying down the stairs of the school building for Physical education lessons. Strange as it seems, I suddenly felt so envious of them. Then i thought of the state i was in now. No doubt i had grown more knowledgeable over the years, but i felt restricted and bounded. Bounded by the many rules in life, trying to be self reliant, less trusting, etc etc etc.

Not that I am sick of my life, i just felt that the days when everyday was so simple- friends, food, family and school, and strangely even homework.

Why does it seem so hard to feel happy nowadays? Have i grown to be greedier than before? A new laptop, hand phone, hand bag would perhaps buy myself happy for a few moments, yet not true joy.

Right now, much work to complete. Strive on.

I will survive this, just like how i did in the past.

Till then, I shall look forward to the next phase ahead of me.

Feels like I've been shot with a gun.(+ a silencer)

Sometimes I wonder if i've grown emotionally stronger.
Its strange that i no longer feel as disappointed (which i thought i would be) when an outing that was planned earlier is suddenly cancelled for one reason or another. There seems to be this voice in my head that keeps reminding me not to hold my expectations too high, for it may fall through (& somehow it will).

Sometimes I wonder if I've just grown more defensive by putting less trust in people, so that i will become less vulnerable to actions or words that may hurt me. I consciously distant myself from some- cause I'm afraid, the closer I get, the deeper I fall and the greater the pain.

Thus.Low hopes,low expectations. working towards immunity (&perhaps insanity.)

Someone, save me.

wherrre?

The only reason that i figured out for attending the Freshmen Inauguration Ceremony was to be Officially declared as an NUS student. lol. It was,overall quite fun(except for the orange and blue balloons that flew down cos some stupid fellow started bursting balloons)

Went to sell flags in bedok yesterday(it was allocated so we didnt have a choice)fun but tiring. heee.

collected my ez-link card- it was a good workout.

1st stop: Yusoff Ishak House OSA:
"Oh, replacement of ezlink is at lvl 1, but for freshmen not here,its at University Hall."

2nd stop: University Hall (Tan Chin Tuan Wing)
"Oh, its at Lee Kong Chian Wing, not here."

3rd stop: University Hall (Lee Kong Chian Wing) Registrar's Office
"Oh, its supposed to be at Yusoff Ishak House. Who told you to come here? (in a not-so-friendly tone)"

So we went all the way back to level 1,yusoff ishak house.

PS- we were on foot for the entire journey.sweet.

Lucky me, i got my ezlink, pcl made a wasted trip cos his was unavailable till tmw.

TIRED, but happy.

MY schedule is fully booked back to back, filled with activities- and I'm happy(:

HQO

5 days of Home Quarantine-
The guy who went to butter factory without declaring apparently has no idea what social responsibility meant. Business camps and ours were forced to break cause of this fellow. How perfect.

1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. Facebook
4. Play games on facebook
5. Watch movies via the net
6. Listen to Music.
7. Sleep
8. Eat
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.
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List repeats itself.


UGH. 2 days of camp in exchange for 5 days of HQ is not funny. at all.

Review.

A few posts back this was what I wrote:

Moving forward, the next step is- PLAY TIME!

Checklist:
1. Exercise
2. Shop while the GSS is still here!
3. Look for a good PC
4. Catch up with my buddies
5. Hang out with friends, catch a movie (been aeons since I have done so)
6. GO TO THE BEACH!
7. ENJOY MY ORIENTATION CAMP!

But now- its replaced by:

Moving forward, the next step is- I DONT KNOW!

Checklist:
1. Exercise- Maybe later, a little lethargic now.
2. Shop while the GSS is still here!- GSS is almst over& I haven't done my shopping.
3. Look for a good PC- Got no budget.
4. Catch up with my buddies - I need some time to myself.
5. Hang out with friends, catch a movie - Watch it via net.Play hangman online.
6. GO TO THE BEACH!- Okays, I'll leave it as it is for now.
7. ENJOY MY ORIENTATION CAMP! - Camp is over already!

Time for some Social responsibility.